Monday, January 31, 2005  

I analyze and I verify and I quantify enough
100 percentile no errors no miss
I synchronize and I specialize and I classify so much
Don't worry 'bout dreaming because I don't sleep --

I wish I could at least 30 percent
Maybe 50 for pleasure then skip all the rest

If I only was more human
I would count every single second the rest of my life
If I just could be more human
I'd have so many little babies and maybe a wife

I'd roll around in mud and have lots of fun then when I was done
Build bubblebath towers and swim in the tub
Sand Castles on the beach, frolick in the sea, get a broken knee
Be scared of the dark and I'd sing out of key

Curse when I lost a fight, kiss and reunite, scratch a spider's bite
Be happy with wrinkles I got when I smile
Pet kittens 'till they purred, maybe keep a bird, always keep my word
I'd cry at sad movies and laugh 'till it hurt

I'd buy a big bike, I'd ride by the lake
And I'd have lots of friends and I'd stay out too late

If I could just be more human
I would see every little thing with a gleam in my eye
If only I was more human
I'd embrace every single feeling that came in my life

Would I care and be forgiving?
Would I be sentimental and would I feel loneliness?

Would I doubt and have misgivings?
Would I cause someone sorrow too? Would I know what to do?

Will I cry when its all over?

When I die will I see Heaven?

"yeah...someone answer for me: what does it mean to be human?"

   [ posted  @ 1:23 AM ] [ (0) comments ]

i thought this was worth reading about. kinda makes you wonder about how the military insudtrial complex works. Of course there are plenty of opinions about the upcoming Iraqi elections, but here is another one.

if you are bored i suggest playing NES games.

   [ posted  @ 10:41 PM ] [ (0) comments ]

here is a little food for thought:

14 signs of fascism:

1. Powerful and continuing expressions of nationalism. From the prominent displays of flags and bunting to the ubiquitous lapel pins, the fervor to show patriotic nationalism, both on the part of the regime itself and of citizens caught up in its frenzy, was always obvious. Catchy slogans, pride in the military, and demands for unity were common themes in expressing this nationalism. It was usually coupled with a suspicion of things foreign that often bordered on xenophobia.

2. Disdain for the importance of human rights. The regimes themselves viewed human rights as of little value and a hindrance to realizing the objectives of the ruling elite. Through clever use of propaganda, the population was brought to accept these human rights abuses by marginalizing, even demonizing, those being targeted. When abuse was egregious, the tactic was to use secrecy, denial, and disinformation.

3. Identification of enemies/scapegoats as a unifying cause. The most significant common thread among these regimes was the use of scapegoating as a means to divert the people’s attention from other problems, to shift blame for failures, and to channel frustration in controlled directions. The methods of choice—relentless propaganda and disinformation—were usually effective. Often the regimes would incite “spontaneous” acts against the target scapegoats, usually communists, socialists, liberals, Jews, ethnic and racial minorities, traditional national enemies, members of other religions, secularists, homosexuals, and “terrorists.” Active opponents of these regimes were inevitably labeled as terrorists and dealt with accordingly.

4. The supremacy of the military/avid militarism. Ruling elites always identified closely with the military and the industrial infrastructure that supported it. A disproportionate share of national resources was allocated to the military, even when domestic needs were acute. The military was seen as an expression of nationalism, and was used whenever possible to assert national goals, intimidate other nations, and increase the power and prestige of the ruling elite.

5. Rampant sexism. Beyond the simple fact that the political elite and the national culture were male-dominated, these regimes inevitably viewed women as second-class citizens. They were adamantly anti-abortion and also homophobic. These attitudes were usually codified in Draconian laws that enjoyed strong support by the orthodox religion of the country, thus lending the regime cover for its abuses.

6. A controlled mass media. Under some of the regimes, the mass media were under strict direct control and could be relied upon never to stray from the party line. Other regimes exercised more subtle power to ensure media orthodoxy. Methods included the control of licensing and access to resources, economic pressure, appeals to patriotism, and implied threats. The leaders of the mass media were often politically compatible with the power elite. The result was usually success in keeping the general public unaware of the regimes’ excesses.

7. Obsession with national security. Inevitably, a national security apparatus was under direct control of the ruling elite. It was usually an instrument of oppression, operating in secret and beyond any constraints. Its actions were justified under the rubric of protecting “national security,” and questioning its activities was portrayed as unpatriotic or even treasonous.

8. Religion and ruling elite tied together. Unlike communist regimes, the fascist and protofascist regimes were never proclaimed as godless by their opponents. In fact, most of the regimes attached themselves to the predominant religion of the country and chose to portray themselves as militant defenders of that religion. The fact that the ruling elite’s behavior was incompatible with the precepts of the religion was generally swept under the rug. Propaganda kept up the illusion that the ruling elites were defenders of the faith and opponents of the “godless.” A perception was manufactured that opposing the power elite was tantamount to an attack on religion.

9. Power of corporations protected. Although the personal life of ordinary citizens was under strict control, the ability of large corporations to operate in relative freedom was not compromised. The ruling elite saw the corporate structure as a way to not only ensure military production (in developed states), but also as an additional means of social control. Members of the economic elite were often pampered by the political elite to ensure a continued mutuality of interests, especially in the repression of “have-not” citizens.

10. Power of labor suppressed or eliminated. Since organized labor was seen as the one power center that could challenge the political hegemony of the ruling elite and its corporate allies, it was inevitably crushed or made powerless. The poor formed an underclass, viewed with suspicion or outright contempt. Under some regimes, being poor was considered akin to a vice.

11. Disdain and suppression of intellectuals and the arts. Intellectuals and the inherent freedom of ideas and expression associated with them were anathema to these regimes. Intellectual and academic freedom were considered subversive to national security and the patriotic ideal. Universities were tightly controlled; politically unreliable faculty harassed or eliminated. Unorthodox ideas or expressions of dissent were strongly attacked, silenced, or crushed. To these regimes, art and literature should serve the national interest or they had no right to exist.

12. Obsession with crime and punishment. Most of these regimes maintained Draconian systems of criminal justice with huge prison populations. The police were often glorified and had almost unchecked power, leading to rampant abuse. “Normal” and political crime were often merged into trumped-up criminal charges and sometimes used against political opponents of the regime. Fear, and hatred, of criminals or “traitors” was often promoted among the population as an excuse for more police power.

13. Rampant cronyism and corruption. Those in business circles and close to the power elite often used their position to enrich themselves. This corruption worked both ways; the power elite would receive financial gifts and property from the economic elite, who in turn would gain the benefit of government favoritism. Members of the power elite were in a position to obtain vast wealth from other sources as well: for example, by stealing national resources. With the national security apparatus under control and the media muzzled, this corruption was largely unconstrained and not well understood by the general population.

14. Fraudulent elections. Elections in the form of plebiscites or public opinion polls were usually bogus. When actual elections with candidates were held, they would usually be perverted by the power elite to get the desired result. Common methods included maintaining control of the election machinery, intimidating and disenfranchising opposition voters, destroying or disallowing legal votes, and, as a last resort, turning to a judiciary beholden to the power elite.


this was taken from Fascism Anyone? by Lawrence Britt

   [ posted  @ 5:03 PM ] [ (0) comments ]

warning: this is what happens when you don't sleep. ever.

for anyone with a smart ass comment about using photoshop to edit the image, yeah bite me. i took that with teh_newhawt.cell and i did not edit it at all.

   [ posted  @ 2:43 PM ] [ (0) comments ]

movies you should see this month:

easy rider
the cabinet of dr. caligari

both of these movies are worth watching more than once. the cabinet of dr. caligari is one of the best movies ever made. most people are put off by it being a silent movie, but i don't care what they think. it is one of the best german expressionist films ever made. easy rider rules for obvious reason.

reading to do this month:

psycho bible by armando favazza
howl by allen ginsberg

yeah...just read them and shut up.

ok i was going to post something larger, but then i got distracted.

   [ posted  @ 4:22 PM ] [ (0) comments ]

ok groton cops are bored...

so i was driving around tonight with krista and we were killing a little time before going to a friends house, and we pulled on to sand hill road. i saw an on coming car and yielded. thankfully i yielded because it was a cop. so i am going down the road behind the cop. and going the speed limit. so the cop decides to pull over. then pulls back in right behind me once i pass. then follows me and obviously runs my plates. then pulls me over. then informs my my inspection sticker is expired.

it would be funny if i didn't get a ticket. it would be funny if this wasn't the second time i have been pulled over with krista in the car. however, the first time i was given a warning because the guy was really nice. he was a pepperell cop though, not a groton douchebag.

i would say which cop it was, but i had a flashlight in my face the whole time. he has the groton ID of 146. whatever that means. just remember cops are people too. just bigger assholes.

yeah, fuck you for being a dick.

   [ posted  @ 1:08 AM ] [ (0) comments ]

man i hate tech support. this woman was a retard too!

fun times at the tptc.

   [ posted  @ 9:52 PM ] [ (0) comments ]

Tsunami aid

really makes you proud to be an american eh?

   [ posted  @ 3:44 PM ] [ (0) comments ]

yesterday was friggin beautiful. i woke up. i was happy. i moved from my bed to my chair. i played MSG3: Snake Eater. I got some food. Then around dinner time had a Triple Black and had steak. Then more MSG3. Then Julie popped online from down in the aussie. That made my night, even though it was morning. Oh well. Yeah that was a beautiful fucking day.

   [ posted  @ 2:50 PM ] [ (0) comments ]

happy fucking new year. this is what you think...assmonkey.

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