Thursday, June 30, 2005  

that is fucking it!!!

the next time i have to wait ten minutes in dunkin donuts i am going to stab someone in the throat and drink the blood instead of the coffee. they need a goddamn line for every asshole that needs to buy seven complex pussy ass chilled latte coffee bullshit AND then on top of that order six goddamn breakfast sandwiches. to make things worse there were two of these people in front of me today, and they both were cracking jokes about holding up the line. there was an old guy behind me, easily 85+ and he looked like an old farmer. he was ready to kick ass though. i think he could have. i should have let him. instead i just talked loudly with him about inconsiderate assholes. yeah so the lady getting her massive order muttered something about me being rude, and i just looked at her and told her to get out of my way. i think i offended her. too fucking bad!!! she is lucky i didn't let old mcdonald stab her in the face with my dress shoes.

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bah. today is day one of four doubles in a row. you know, i used to work about ten hours a week. now i work 40-50. it is mildly annoying i suppose. it drains me. constantly. i want to roll over and die. oh well. goodnight moon.

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kiss me i'm shitfaced.

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so i thought my modem crapped out. the guy on the other line thought it crapped out and he works for the cable company. i think it sucks anyhow. sometimesiamseksiwhenidie but there is nothing i can do, i need to go and get a new modem. at least they have an office one town over. bastards. they should give me a thousand new modems, just to make me happy. iamafunnylittlemonkeyandthepatronsaintofswitchbladefights what else is there to do in this world? oh well. i have to work tomorrow and i should be sleeping. stupid internet...doesn't work when i want it to. does when no one else is online. time to get nekkid and hop in bed. damn you all, the swine are at the door so out the window i go.

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to shame i am put, for not posting enough. for not doing enough. for nothing enough in this world that we exist.

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"in this place it seems like such a shame, though it all looks different now, i know it's still the same. everywhere i look, you're all i see. just a fading fucking reminder of who i used to be. come on tell me! you make this all go away, you make this all go away, i'm down to just one thing, and i'm starting to scare myself." --NIN pretty hate machine

yeah it is always nice to listen to things that i haven't heard for a long time. brings back memories of stuff i have been through. it is similar to going through an old journal. musical atavism...

so it is father's day. did the lunch thing. had a great dirty martini. longhorn steakhouse must have a half decent bartender. and the waitress was cute, polite, skilled and a martini drinker. she got like a 25% tip. i didn't pay, or tip. she earned it.

"the plastic force to portray, all the insides left cold and gray. there is a place that still remains, it eats the fear it east the pain. the sweetest price you'll have to pay, the day whole world went...away." NIN - and all that could have been (still) [i changed albums deal with it.]

i realized how dead groton can be. i drove up main street around 2 maybe and there was no one. there was a single car at dunkins and that was about it. interesting to see everything slow down. maybe the radiohead in the car and maybe the lack of people put me in a chill mood. for a moment, a moment that i am clinging to right now, i had a total body relax. not in the manner in which cadavers have full body relax and loss of muscle control, but one of those moments where a person feels at peace totally. i don't get those often, so i think i will enjoy it while i can. soon enought he gears will shift and i will be thrust back into full speed, at least what i consider full speed. then the music will change, and the dance will accelerate. the kids on E and speed will bounce around and the rounds will be doubles consumed at the rate of singles. back to the world, run from the swine, out the window just to save some time.

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i just heard this great joke:

what's the difference between you and a a mallard with the flu?

one's a sick duck...aww hell i forget how it goes, but the punchline is your mother's a whore.

leave my ducky wall paper out of it. darn dirty punks with smelly clothing. it isn't my fault that you never do laundry.

bored at work...bored at work...i am so bloody bored at work.

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feel the clur of my piercing

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music: the faint - agenda suicide
book: the great shark hunt HST
mood: better than the last post

tomorrow i mutilate my body even more than i already have. will it go further than before? will it be less apparent? who knows. you'll just have to wait and see. tomorrow also happens to be my first day off. yay. i am happy about that. i like chicken.

i felt like posting more, but i don't feel it now.

"the glass dense world flickers on..."

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karma: you fuck with me and i'll fuck with you

"bitches ain't shit but hoes and tricks, so like on these nuts and suck a dick." nwa

ok so i am a little angry. yeah...
i get this way when things happen to people i care about.
oh well...redirection time.

i had a wonderful time on saturday. went to the movies. connected perfectly with a good friend. had an amazing night. blah blah, all sherry and giggles.

**has a martini and calms the fuck down**

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this banal existence is so atavistic that it personifies everything i wish i wasn't, and everything that makes me more powerful than i can imagine.

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did you hear that?

well i did. this is unreal.

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update:

this is because i am bored as hell at work and the fazed.net forums are equally as boring at the moment. i got the books that i wanted. three more h.s.t. books. and now my collection of the gonzo papers is complete. that makes me a happy panda.

it is hot as hell outside. i am sort of glad that i am inside at the moment, but at the same time i am sad that i am breathing stale air that has more than likely been in the building for over a year. i am breathing year old farts. i have an urge to vomit now.

at the moment it is about six thirty, which means that i have three more hours. that is painful to think about. i wish i was doing something else.

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well this morning i got three calls from a restricted number, which makes me think the telemarketers finally got my cell number, which blows, but i got on that bloody do not call list quicker than...something really fast.

"Older chests reveal themselves
Like a crack in a wall
Starting small, and grow in time
And we always seem to need the help
Of someone else
To mend that shelf
Too many books
Read me your favourite line"

mmm...my new books should be in by now. i think i will checck the mail before work. yeah...work again.

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crown royal. two cubes. breakfast of champions.

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so i was just noticing that GM is offering employee discounts to everyone. if i worked for GM i would be pissed, because that meant my discount was meaningless. what a heartless bastard of a company, taking away probably the only decent benefit that it gives employees...minus heath insurance and stuff.

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