"in this place it seems like such a shame, though it all looks different now, i know it's still the same. everywhere i look, you're all i see. just a fading fucking reminder of who i used to be. come on tell me! you make this all go away, you make this all go away, i'm down to just one thing, and i'm starting to scare myself." --NIN pretty hate machine
yeah it is always nice to listen to things that i haven't heard for a long time. brings back memories of stuff i have been through. it is similar to going through an old journal. musical atavism...
so it is father's day. did the lunch thing. had a great dirty martini. longhorn steakhouse must have a half decent bartender. and the waitress was cute, polite, skilled and a martini drinker. she got like a 25% tip. i didn't pay, or tip. she earned it.
"the plastic force to portray, all the insides left cold and gray. there is a place that still remains, it eats the fear it east the pain. the sweetest price you'll have to pay, the day whole world went...away." NIN - and all that could have been (still) [i changed albums deal with it.]
i realized how dead groton can be. i drove up main street around 2 maybe and there was no one. there was a single car at dunkins and that was about it. interesting to see everything slow down. maybe the radiohead in the car and maybe the lack of people put me in a chill mood. for a moment, a moment that i am clinging to right now, i had a total body relax. not in the manner in which cadavers have full body relax and loss of muscle control, but one of those moments where a person feels at peace totally. i don't get those often, so i think i will enjoy it while i can. soon enought he gears will shift and i will be thrust back into full speed, at least what i consider full speed. then the music will change, and the dance will accelerate. the kids on E and speed will bounce around and the rounds will be doubles consumed at the rate of singles. back to the world, run from the swine, out the window just to save some time.
