Sunday, September 30, 2007  

hello explosive allergic reactions
that was impressive
i mean, ouch

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Now playing: A Perfect Circle - Counting Bodies Like Sheep To The Rhythm Of The War Drums
via an egotistical whore named maynard

   [ posted  @ 5:37 PM ] [ (0) comments ]

when i am trapped in the office late at night, knowing that i have to go to another office first thing in the morning is a horrible reality that i would much rather not face. this building is just filled by me, one candidate and a security guard who is definitely stoned.

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Now playing: Elliott Smith - Miss Misery
via A Burning Mexican Stripper in Dallas

   [ posted  @ 10:59 PM ] [ (0) comments ]

the natural process slows
the artificial accelerates

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Now playing: The Faint - glass dense world
via FoxyTunes

   [ posted  @ 10:24 PM ] [ (0) comments ]

incidental genocide in iraq
operation iraqi freedom
freeing the iraqi people
happens to kill more civilians
than it saves

well, not yet. soon though, far too soon.

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Now playing: Converter - Cannibals
via FoxyTunes

   [ posted  @ 10:20 PM ] [ (0) comments ]

my good mood persists. i cleaned. mostly around my computer area, but it seems like a good enough start. i have started as i mean to go on.

plenty of good music these days. keeping my mind fresh. with fresh in mind, i got new sandalwood incense today. it is rather warming and calming. it is a nice smell to sleep to and wake to in the morning.

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Now playing: Rush - 2112 Overture/The Temples of Syrinx
via FoxyTunes

   [ posted  @ 9:24 PM ] [ (0) comments ]

when i woke up this morning i noticed that the world was a very different place.
i am not sure whether it was the world changing or me changing.
either way the whole landscape was different.
things previously tolerated have become unbearable.
thus i enter a great period of change.
one more breath and here we go.

   [ posted  @ 3:41 PM ] [ (0) comments ]

traveling is done. i should remain static for a couple months. at least workwise, i would like to travel on my own. That however is different. Pleasure trips. on the list: jax + pitts

i need to start really writing. get that shit out of my head. then maybe i will be able to move on to something a little less tedious. i imagine that it all is tedious in the end. unless you nail it on the first try. anytime that you have to go back and edit it gets annoying.

soulseek is up and running again. i love the new server. lightening fast. SUNDAY SUNDAY SUNDAY!!! and saturday.

firefox is all inclusive. that is what i like about it the most i believe. everything that i need is a few keystrokes away. i am sure IE has changed since i last used it, but i doubt it has changed enough to make it worthwhile. it's a damned security risk. if you use IE, the terrorists win.

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Now playing: KMFDM - Blood Evil-Mix
via FoxyTunes

   [ posted  @ 10:59 AM ] [ (0) comments ]

traveling is done with for now. the earliest i expect to go back into the field for work is december, and even then i am not sure. i welcome the rest, but again i'm realizing that when you aren't constantly busy you have to deal with yourself. it can be overwhelming. last time this happened i flipped out and hit the road. it was good to clear out my brain like that, but i don't think that i will be able to do that again. i have other things that i need to take care of at the moment.

what i need is to hole up somewhere, without anything planned. just sitting, thinking, listening, repeating, existing. temporarily quenching my brain's desire to reason through everything. time is what i need, time that can be used however i choose to use it. that might be some time away though, which is unfortunate.

there are some good choices that i can look back upon and be delighted. there are thousands of fuck ups that i am reminded of constantly. there is a small gap between the successes and the failures i have had in life. love is a dog from hell, i know what that means.

   [ posted  @ 9:34 AM ] [ (0) comments ]

nothing to see here
move along

   [ posted  @ 9:38 AM ] [ (0) comments ]

tired in san juan

   [ posted  @ 11:22 AM ] [ (0) comments ]

well puerto rico is done, and i cannot say that i did not enjoy the experience. it was much nicer than i thought it would be. the heat did bother me, but after a couple medallas there is no need to worry about it. i wouldn't mind learning a little more spanish though...it would come in handy.

off to vancouver on thursday, which is the last of these trips for now. travel starts up again in january from what i can tell. there will be a new adviser though, now that dana has left. it might be hard to adjust, but i hope it isn't.

i'm finally getting through the last of kafka on the shore. that book is a real trip. it is like being on drugs, sans spending a lot of money for the feeling. i'm not sure that i would want to write in that fashion, but it is interesting to see how another author does it. plus the ending has me guessing. i have a couple ideas, but nothing i would bet on right now.

firewater has a new album coming out soon. i've got a couple of the tracks that i bought. pretty good stuff. crazy and brilliant in its own fashion. i hope they tour again, it would be nice to finally see them live. i find myself constantly loving bands that no longer exist, which stinks because there is a longing to see them perform live but never a chance.

   [ posted  @ 11:05 AM ] [ (0) comments ]

in san juan
living it up
or something

   [ posted  @ 5:09 PM ] [ (0) comments ]

omg i am capt'n k

   [ posted  @ 10:21 AM ] [ (0) comments ]